If I were a superhero then I would want to be a character that always had energy to keep going no matter the pace or distance. The ability to always have the right words for any situation wouldn’t be bad either or some days I think the perfect ability would be invisibility.
But I’m no superhero. Apparently this fact doesn’t stop me from trying.
I think partly it comes from knowing there is so much that needs to be done… always! Part of it comes from trying to be like everyone else, but the truth is I simply cannot keep the pace of most of my other colleagues.
So it isn’t surprising that I had an anxiety attack a few nights ago. It’s also not surprising that countless times this week found me in tears. In fact, I think today has been the first day in two weeks I’ve been able to breathe, really breathe, without feeling like a concrete block was sitting on my chest.
Why am I sharing this?
Because I recognize my tendency to try doing it all in my own strength. Then I fall to pieces, let people down, let myself down and feel horrible. And I am certain that I am not alone in this tendency.
Why the feeling that we need to be superheroes instead of relying on God? He is after all in control, yes?
Often my actions, my stress level, would lead one to believe that it all rests in my hands, but it doesn’t. Thank God!!
So today I did nothing. I took a long bath and used some wonderful smelling clay mask. I cooked fish and watched movies. I did nothing productive, except a load of laundry to have some clothes for the week. And I think to myself, “Yep, I think God knew what He was talking about when He said we should have a day of rest every week.” He’s a lot smarter than we give Him credit for.
Tomorrow begins a new week. I have classes and clubs and meetings and Bible studies and visa trip preparations and summer camp plans and the list goes on. I’m starting this week, however, mindful that I am not a superhero and don’t need to make others think that I am.
What are you facing this week that you need to remember that God is in control of? I pray the peace of God will be with you throughout the days ahead as you rest in Him to take care of those things.