I’m not sure if you have noticed, but 2012 is quickly coming to a close. A few people out there even believe that the world’s end is even sooner.
How do you feel about this past year that you’ve lived?
As I stood in the middle of the room a few nights ago and led about 30 people in some wacky Christmas games to liven up the party, I realized a few things.
- Changing, changing, always changing.
I still get butterflies in my stomach and have knees that knock together when I have to speak… sometimes. But not always. Sometimes, like Saturday night, it’s just fun. I get to be loud and crazy and fun, and I kind of like that. I never dreamed I would respond in a work meeting with the words, “Yeah, I got it. I don’t know what I’m doing yet, but no worries.” I’ve made that statement a LOT this past year.
How have you changed this year?
It can be both fun and encouraging to recognize the growth happening in your life. Sometimes we are too close to us to see it though. Maybe ask a few trusted friends how they see God growing you. You may be surprised.
- Learning to lead, like it or not.
Do you ever look at someone you love and just wish they could see what you see? If there is one thing I have learned this past year (and continue to learn) is that I am a leader. I may not be some eloquent speaker gifted with charisma and ideas overflowing, but I can peer around and see people that look to me for wisdom, encouragement and prayer support. It isn’t because I have all the answers, but simply because I love them.
If loving leads to leading, then I guess I am a leader after all.
Have you discovered something this year about yourself that others have said and you never believed?
- It’s probably worth it… no… it IS so worth it.
This past year, for me, has been filled with ups and downs like a roller coaster ride that I had no intentions of riding and therefore didn’t take motion sickness medicine so I could make it through. Of course, I’ve made it through but certainly with a little nausea. And I’m certain that I’m not the only one that feels this way about 2012.
In the midst of the chaos though I have seen God bring healing to the hurting, open hearts to truth, and draw sons and daughters closer to Him. I have cried with those that have discovered the consequences of sin, rejoiced with them when they found extravagant grace, and have witnessed those I love released from bondage. I say that makes all the other junk worth it.
What has made it “worth it” for you this year?
No one knows what 2013 holds, provided the end of the world doesn’t happen before then. ;) Let’s take a few moments and reflect on the gift of 2012, good and bad, ugly and beautiful, God has given us the breath to be present in this time and He uses all things to His glory.